There and Back Again

Disposition: Relaxed
Listening: My sister’s playlist
Reading: Crisis Four (Andy McNab)
Watching: After the Deluge
Obsessing: Karl Urban and Sean Bean
Pondering: Do not be anxious about tomorrow. Tomorrow will be anxious for itself. Let the day’s worries be sufficient for the day. (Jesus of Nazareth)

I chanced upon the above passage a few days ago as I was watching Jesus of Nazareth, Franco Zeffirelli’s movie about the birth and death of Jesus Christ. I’ve seen this movie many, many times having grown up in a country where we observe Holy Week as devotedly as we celebrate Christmas and where, on Good Fridays, the neighborhoods are quiet and pensive and every movie that played on TV was about stories in the bible, one of which was Jesus of Nazareth. This, by the way, is the movie to watch if you really, really want to know the story about the passion of the Christ.

The passage hit a chord because it addresses one of my greatest fears in life — the fear of what the future might hold. People worry about growing old and about dying. Some people live life for the future and thereby missing the present. I am one of these people. I constantly aim to live life in the now but every now and then I do get to thinking about life in the future and I get anxious. I get to thinking about death, about what actually happens when you breathe your last breath and I worry about the people and things I love and hold on to right now. What would life be without them?

Hearing these words, I am comforted and reminded that I shall handle what happens when it happens, like I always do. I will have miserable times, I will have wonderful times and I will get through them. I need not worry about them now…I will worry or enjoy them when the time comes.